Sleepiness is my alcohol, my anesthetic

When I have ample sleep, I will be clear-headed. That is when problems arise.

I will then give serious considerations and evaluations of my current situation.

Several issues of grave gravity had concluded with not the best desired outcomes.

Situation one: Bottle-necked for aikido, badminton and wow.

Inherent fear embedded deep inside me, for whatever reasons, be it I'm scared that I will hurt my uke if I become too forceful or being afraid that moving too swiftly will cause me to miss steps in techniques, has resulted in unnecessary hesitations in my aikido moves, ironically making them overall less aiki. I can't progress beyond my current level unless I overcome all my fears. Aikido or non-aikido.

As for badminton, can't get the proper stroke and footwork. Maybe will need to play more with clement and benedict. But I nv make any proper effort to initiate games with them.

Wow, sad. Have been playing for half a year. I want to explore the high-end pve content but am held back by friends who think 40-man raids are stupid. Maybe I'll get keyed for those big instances by the time I start clearing leave and I'll join a big guild to raid. Before that happens, I'll most probably be roaming ard aimlessly inside game. I have already wasted 34 days (translated to 816 hours) in a video game, so what is another 50-70 hrs to me?

Situation two: I need a pragmatic major to feed myself later. But I don't like economics.

I need to admit. FASS (shake head) is too cool for me. I don't really know what I can become next time with either a Bachelor of Arts or B.A. (Soc sci). Economics looks most pragmatic. But the only reason I'll take up Economics will be for the Double Honors program. The one whereby you'll grad with Law honors and Arts honors. Its too ambitious to even dream about the program as only 8 year ones who majored in econs, I think, will get the chance to enter the program. That means to even enter, I must be amongst the top of the economics students. I have to mug 24/7.

I have 3 months of jc economics background. People who had studied econs 2 years complained about how tough it is. I'm tempted to try. Will need to review the feasibility of this plan 2 weeks later.

Situation san: I definitely have more than 2 problems, but I cannot pinpoint them now.