Today is Tuesday - weekly server update day - which means that I don't get to play World of Warcraft tonight. I shall thus write something long to pass time.

Anyway, I went for alumni band practice last Saturday. Could not sight read with ease, could not pronouce my notes clearly and could not project my instrument's voice. Quite saddening considering that I had played my instrument for six years and had only stopped for two years.

Made me realised that I have been approaching music with the wrong attitude, total disrespect and incorrect learning methods. I see notes on the score as mathematical instructions and merely follow them, but do not see them as beautiful passages which await impatiently for me to thoroughoutly explore. I do not recognise how each note should sound. My tonal expression isn't prefect and yet I do not seek improvement - and I know how I can improve.

Guess it is time to restablish communication with my tuba - or whoever's tuba that I'm playing.

And just when I need this CD - Portrait of an Artist: Arnold Jacobs - it has gone missing. So infuriating because it is one of those I-shld-keep-properly-and-yet-I-left-it-lying-around-and-now-it-is-freaking-lost cd. Arnold Jacobs is one of the greatest authority with regards to tuba playing and breath control. I bought this cd long ago but never really listen to it attentively. Now that I need it for re-educational purposes it's freaking abducted by Martians.

Comtemplating whether to buy a new one or not.

His works and words contained inside the cd are priceless. But they indeed cost $25.